For Beatrice--

I think I'm going to quit stalking a few people on LJ. There are some people I've added as friends even though I don't know them, 'cause I like intruding on their lives. Somehow, that just seems stupid to me now. XD I think I might leave some less-important communities, too. Not like I participate in any communities in the first place, buuuuut... I  guess it's okay to still belong to some. XD

Huh. Either my keyboard or LJ "Rich text" mode likes to add spaces in things for no apparent reason.

In any case, I think I've been feeling happier with my job and my life lately, but I still feel like I want to go back to Boston. This makes me sad. I look back on it, and it seems like good times. I know there were bad times, but that was all in my head, wasn't it? (The being crazy, I mean... Throwing things and crying and whatnot. Not like I don't do that here... XD) I just keep remembering, like, walking up that stupid hill to Whole Foods in the rain, or going to that diner in downtown Brighton, or throwing things at Jess's window 'cause she doesn't answer her phone. XD It seems like fun. Besides WAITING FOR THE DAMN TRAIN IN THE RAIN AND SNOW... Even that, though, is kinda funny. I usually appreciated public transportation so-so when I used it, but I often wanted a car to just go places and get it over with. Now that I have to drive everywhere, I really wish there was public transportation. XD You can get so much reading done on a train! Or drawing, or knitting, or whatever! I mean, it *is* time-consuming, but all I can do on my hour-long commute is listen to audiobooks or music. Or talk to myself. XD

I've been watching this j-drama called "Orange Days" lately. I really like it. At first I thought it was kind of dumb...and, well, isn't all drama? XD But it's about this guy who meets a deaf girl and they become friends (OR MAYBE MORE, omfg XD). I've been trying to copy the sign language, which makes me laugh at myself and the cat run away... I really do want to learn sign language, though. I have for a long time. But I don't know which to pick! Right now it makes the most sense to learn ASL, 'cause here we are. XD I think JSL fascinates me the most, just because there are so many levels of Japanese--how the HELL do they manage to convey all those things through gestures and body language??!! But if we're eventually going to settle in the UK, it makes more sense to learn BSL (note for the un-savvy, or those who just didn't think about it before--while American English and British English are pretty much the same, American Sign Language and British Sign Language are totally different ;). Besides all that, it seems there are no classes in any of them around here. XD So.

I got kind of worried yesterday because I think I may eventually develop OCD. My dad had it pretty bad and there have been studies that show an increased risk if someone in your family has it. I don't know if I really want to talk about it, except maybe with Kari. XD Of course, I do go through periods of self-diagnosed mental disorders, so I guess we'll see... My anxiety started to come back a bit with the flea outbreak. X____X Hopefully I'm starting to calm down a bit...

I think I'm going to create an LJ tag for all the times I say I want to do something. XD wtf is wrong with me and all my fleeting aspirations??